Feeling A Little Off



The Darkness of My Closet Size Room



The funny thing about anxiety is that it can sneak up on you at any moment.

At about 6am I had that moment.

Panic attack/ Anxiety attack whatever you call it, nothing makes the experience more enjoyable. It can sneak up on you when you're least expecting it. Like when your fast asleep, like it did to me.

You feel you chest tighten, your lungs constrict, your thoughts race as you body is covered in a hot sweat. You wait for it to be over...because eventually like everything in life, there is an ending.

I tossed an turned for hours too uncomfortable to go to my first class. Somehow I pull it together enough to make it through my last class and lunch. I crawl back in my dark, newly cleaned room,  and try to relax. But I can't. I can still feel the tightness in my chest, I remember the discomfort. I worry about it happening again. 

Days like today...when I'm so completely "off" I can't put cohesive thoughts together.  I carefully and hopefully crawl back into bed. Praying I sleep long enough to recover from the discomfort of trauma, wondering if ill awake ready to begin my day again.

Peace and Love,
The gal in the red glasses